Why Am I Blogging, Anyway?

So. I have been trying to come up with my next post. But I, being ever the self critic, keep asking myself "what do you have to say that people want or need to hear?" 'Anything?" I do not want to be a one of those contrived blogs that wants the world to believe that they have it all together and decorate their house fabulously and even more so on holidays. Or worse, they actually DO have it all together and more so on holidays! You see that takes something I don't have much of, energy. I dream of having it even half way together enough just to have a lot of fun with my family one day, but sometimes even that is a challenge. I have some health issues that feel like a giant foot on my chest some days and a giant cinder block anchor on my dreams. But I'm a fighter, I will have the last word in this ordeal. I do choose my battles and this is one I'm in to win because I know what it feels like to feel good and have energy to spare. I crave that feeling enough to not just sit back and let it drain out of me like life blood. Nope. Sorry, can't. I have been through many a booty kickins in this crazy life. Had my butt handed to me more times than I care to recall. But those are the times I say "Yep, that's mine, thanks!" "I'll just be takin my butt and scootin on down the road till the next lesson." I have the determination gene. At least for the things I want and need. And, sometimes I wish I didn't. Sometimes I wish I could just sit back and be lazy and satisfied with a life half lived but I also don't love regrets. So, Back to my original question, why am I blogging? I still don't know except that my husband tells me he thinks I should and I also want to reach out to other imperfect families with imperfect lives, children and homes and reassure them as well as myself that as Hinckley (one of my favorite people) said, "It will all be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end." Walk on imperfect families, walk on. BTW This is what you get when your health is crummy and you are glad you only have 6 kids! # 7 shows up....late...without RSVP ing!

And everyday we are so thankful she did too! : )